Post partum..or desperately feeling inside?

Feels empty inside.
Can't find the purpose of my life.
And suddenly I realize
There are some things I have to do
Before I die

Make people around me happy.
That's all.

Have to prepare the best for my baby
Have to make my husband smile daily
Have to make my parents living thankfully
My sisters, my surrounds..

Because that's what matters for them. For me.

I can't find one thing, even only one..the reason to be happy for my self.

But I still can make happiness for others.
I do.
So that's the purpose of my life.